Just Something I Was Thinking About

I was thinking last night as I was listening to some music before bed about some of the things that I have been through in my life. I see so many people going through divorces these days or they are in relationships they shouldn't be in , or just plain not doing what they should be when it comes to relationships. It really breaks my heart to see so many people get it wrong. Speaking from someone who is divorced and has been single for many years now I can say that I now know what it is God wants for me and I know what I want for myself if I was to ever get into another relationship. It breaks my heart to see so many young girls give themselves away to someone and not value themselves more than that. If a boy wants to be with you he needs to seek after God and what it is God wants for his life and if they truly want a relationship with you then he has to ask your DADDYS permission. You ladies have value and don't let this world fool you into thinking you have to sleep with someone in order for them to love you or that you have to change who you are for someone. I spent alot of years trying to be someone I wasn't for another person and when I finally said enough is enough and sought after God and what he wanted for my life then I finally understood where my wires were crossed so to speak. We get it all wrong when it comes to relationships because of what we see and hear everyday on tv, movies, and the people we surround ourselves with. God should ALWAYS be the center of any relationship you have. I have a close friend who is seperated and lost their family because they didnt keep God the center of the relationship. God meant marriage to be forever not for now and then when things get tough you bail. I know when and if I get married again it will be because God put us together. There should be respect, kindness, willingness to listen, and most of all you should always seek God and what it is he wants for your marriage. Everything we need for a successful marriage is in his WORD. If we keep ourselves full of his word and seek after HIM then we will truly know what it is to have true unconditional love for our partner.

NOTHING CAN KEEP ME FROM DANCING!!!!!!

As many of you may or may not know I have been battling pain in my left foot for about 6 years now. Thats about how long I have been in the dance ministry....coiencidence I don't think so. Anyway about a month ago I was at work and my foot was hurting me so bad I couldnt hardly walk and caused me to cry in pain. I went home that friday and did nothing that weekend, but I got up that Sunday morning and said God nothing and I mean nothing will keep me from doing what you have called me to do. I walked in and Tammy said no I will do flags and I said to her no I have to do them this morning. She totally understood what I meant and has been there herself where she knew she had to dance her way through it. From that moment on I felt an overwhelming peace that I knew God had it all under control. I knew what I was going to be fasting for on my 21 day fast. I prayed for my foot to be totally healed and for God to give me the wisdom to be able to make better choice so that I could lose weight to carry out what he has called me to do. I don't want to just halfway do what he called me to do I want to do it with excellence and be able to look at people when I minister and say I have made it through and so can you. Don't ever give up and keep yourself focused on HIM and he will give you the strength and the wisdom to be able to carry out what he has called you to do. I went to the doctor right after that Sunday and the doctor told me I had a Bursa Sac and a Spur on my Achilles Tendon. Quite painful and not fun to have wrong with your foot when you are in the dance ministry. Well he put me in an air boot and gave me some anti inflammatories to take to get the swelling down. He said come back in 3 weeks and we will see how you are doing and if it gets better we will discuss how to go from there. If it gets worse then we will schedule and MRI and will probabaly have to do surgery if its really bad. I looked at the doctor and said not surgery!!!! He smiled and said I hope not. So I went back to the doctor this past week and my foot has gotten better and he said he wants to continue the treatment for another 3 weeks and the fourth week I am to walk in my regular shoes. He will then have me come back and they will cast me for a functional shoe insert that will raise my heels up so that the tendon doesn't rub against that spur. He asked what kind of activities I did outside of work I told him I was in the dance ministry. He scowled at me and said in a low tone NOOOOOO we cant be doing that. I said doc I am not being disrespectful but I will continue to dance anyway. He said well we need to get your foot well and not to damage it anymore. I still looked at him and said I will still dance. He then said ok we will talk about it when you come back I smiled and just shook my head. I left the doctors office and called my mom and told her what the doctor said and she said I told you he would tell you to stop dancing. I said mom I know you mean well and are trying to look out for me but that isn't going to stop me from dancing. I know what he has called me to do and nothing or no one will keep me from doing it. Even if I have to dance in a cast or on crutches. She said ok and left it at that. I had a few people at work shake their head because they heard me say I was still going to dance. This was my facebook post from the day I left the doctors office " DONT LET ANYTHING OR ANYONE KEEP YOU FROM DOING WHAT GOD HAS CALLED YOU TO DO. YOU STAND FIRM ON HIS WORD AND REBUKE THE DEVIL AND HE WILL HAVE TO FLEE. NOTHING IN THIS WORLD NOT EVEN FAMILY AND FRIENDS SHOULD KEEP YOU FROM DOING WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN CALLED TO DO!!!!!!!!!!! God said he gives us the desires of our hearts. Well mine is to dance for HIM like never before and to lose weight so I can carry out that call on my life. Tomorrow at church I will be without my boot for the day because I know that I know that I know that I know that I know I am healed. I will continue to do what the doctor has asked me to do. If you only get one thing from this blog entry I want it to be this.....Don't let yourself stop you from doing what he has called you to do. Make the decision to do all you can do and let him do the rest. He will give you the knowledge and wisdom to carry out what he called you to do as well as give you the strength to get through it all. The enemy can come at me but he knows when I say flee in the name of JESUS he has to go!!!!!! So when you see me dancing tomorrow in church my prayer is that you see HIM through me and that it sparks you to go after all that God has for you and to do what he has called you to do.

Overcome-SONG - DONT JUST LISTEN WORSHIP

When we were out in St. Louis Charmaine played this song for us and I just cried listening to it. I just thought I would share it on my blog with everyone. Don't just listen to it worship with it. This song makes me want to dance til I fall down on my knees and just lay there at his feet.

Dont Hold Back

I recently went to St. Louis with the Dance It Out team to minister in a friend of ours christmas program at their church. There are alot of reasons why this past weekend was a divine appointment, but I think the reason I was supposed to be there was to re-affirm that I am where I am supposed to be and to show me that there are greater things ahead. There are times I feel so clumsy when I dance and I say God why do you have me dancing I dont have any ability I ache all the time and I am sure someone else can do it better than me. He gently puts his arms around me and holds me tight and says, but you said yes when I asked. When I was in St. Louis I messed up during the first service dancing and I felt so bad about it afterwards, but no one noticed or if they did they never said anything. Something that Curtis said to us before we left when we were talking about everything that weekend. He said this church is so used to everything being perfect that they need to see that its not about perfection but about your heart and willingness to put yourself out there for God to do something. There are going to be times when you step out and do what God has called you to do that you will mess up and you will feel as if someone else can do it better but don't let that stop you from the call he placed on your life. He wasnt looking for perfection he was looking for someone to say yes I will. I dont look for compliments or nice words when I dance and its hard for me to take the compliments when given. I do what I do because God asked me to step out and do it for him and because I just can't sit still and just raise my hands anymore. For all he has done in me I want to shout and dance and show him how much I love him. I sometimes wonder what people would do if God just walked in the church would they just stand there or sit in there chairs. I know everyone has their own way to worship I am not knocking anyone's way of doing it but do you think about what you are singing about? If you truly did it would make you want to fall at his feet and worship or get up and shout to the heavens praises to him. Next time you see me or any of the team doing flags or dancing don't just sit there if you feel like dancing and shouting get up and do it. Our whole purpose is to help others enter into worship in a deeper way. Don't let what other people may think hold you back. It doesn't matter how silly you think you look stop letting that mindset hold you back.

Don't Let Your Words Destroy Someone

I watched two people go at it today at work and not handle themselves in a very good manner today. It made me sad to see both of them not handle the situation and could very well have resulted in both of them being terminated. I see so many people that always want to blame the other person for why they behaved in such a bad manner when it really boils down to how you handle yourself. It doesn't matter how another person treats or speaks to you. The only control you have is over yourself and how you deal with the situation. When I was very young I would say things without thinking how it may make the person feel or if I was making the stiutation worse. We shouldn't be quick to say things out of anger or hurt. We should use wisdom in what we allow to come out of our mouths. It took me alot of years to learn that. That's not to say that I may not want to say some things out of anger, but I stop myself and ask God to help me change how I handle myself and what I allow to come out of my mouth. The tongue is a powerful weapon and if misused it can cause destruction in someone's life. I don't know about you but I don't want my words to destroy someone I want them to uplift and encourage them.

Sharing My Thanksgiving Thoughts

This is something I wrote last year and posted it on my notes in facebook and I thought I would share it with. "Thank you God for loving me enough to send your son to die for me even when I know I don't deserve it. Thank you for always being there thru every circumstance good or bad and despite my selfishness you still extended grace to me. Thank you for giving me another day to breath and to be able to worship you and to have a small part in helping others to come to Christ. Thank you for always forgiving me when I make a wrong choice and willfully doing it but yet you still forgive me when I ask. Thank you for placing people around me that lift me up in prayer and encouragement when I have no strength of my own to do it myself. Thank you for the blessing of giving me my girls who despite my not being the best of moms at times they love you with all their heart and choose to serve you. Thank you for my parents and their unconditional love for me and there wisdom to point me the right way when I sometimes didnt want to listen. Thank you for the church you have placed me in that is a loving church that just wants to serve you in anyway they can no matter how small or big. I have so many other things to be thankful for and my list could go on forever even down to the smallest of things. Knowing that he has my name written down in heaven is what I'm most thankful for because without Jesus dying for my sins I wouldn't have my name written in heaven. What is it you are thankful for the most? NOV. 25th 2010" .

20+ Years Later

I had an old friend come into town this past weekend and came to church to visit. He and I go way back and he knew me back when I wasnt in a good place in my life and neither was he. He said to my pastor that 20+ years ago you never would have gotten her up there to dance and do flags. He's right I wouldn't have done it for nothing. I have grown and learned so much in those 20+ years and Im in a different walk with God. I have had to learn that it's not about me it's all about HIM. I have to die to my selfish nature every day and ask God what it is he wants. It's not always easy I find myself being selfish at times and do what I want to anyway. I don't ever want to go back to that place where I was at all those years ago. I was a christian who struggled and wanted to be loved by someone. I wasn't satisfied being myself and always wanted to be accepted. I cared what others thought of me back then instead of caring what God thought and wanted for my life. I spent way too many years looking for love in a man and got myself into bad relationships and started those relationships off the wrong way every time. I am finally in a place to where I seek after God and don't worry so much about whether I have someone to share my life with. I am never alone he is always with me no matter where I am. I have my kids and a great family, a wonderful church family, and some pretty awesome friends. I look for his approval not the approval of man. I stopped seeking out someone to date or be in a relationship with. I had to get myself in a place where I was sick enough of my circumstances and going around the same tree so to speak over and over again that I finally cried out to God and said I only want what you want for my life. If I go through this life with no one to share it with then I am ok with that. God has done a work in my life and I am not about to throw it all away on a temporary pleasure because I have been fooled into thinking I have to have someone in my life. It makes me sad to see that there are so many people out there that are in the same place I was for all those years. Don't make the mistake of seeking after a man/woman approval and for their love. That only leads down a path of never-ending void inside you. I am thankful that God had patience enough and loved me enough to bring me to the place I am at now in my life. Bury your heart so deep into God so that person who seeks after you has to seek God's heart to find yours.