Hi everybody sorry its been a while since I have blogged but I have been working so much overtime the past few months that the last thing I want to do is get on my computer at night when I come home. I promise I will start back up again soon. I have been doing pretty good lately, but it had been a bit rough for a while. I had been dealing with some anger I had towards myself and have had to work through some of that. Please keep me and my girls in your prayers. I will hopefully be starting back blogging soon. Til then god bless you all and I look forward to talking to you all soon.
A funny thing happened today. Well I guess I should start by telling everyone how the week has gone first before i tell the funny thing. My week started off rough at work but it was expected. Monday nights practice was my first practice in 3 weeks and i was so lost in this new dance I felt like I couldn't get it down. I have slacked in learning it cause of my vacation and working so much. I woke up Wednesday morning feeling okay. I went to work and by lunch time I felt light headed and I was coughing a little bit. By the time I left work that day at 5:00 I was running a fever and could hardly breath. It hit me hard and out of no where. I went straight to the doctor cause I knew I wasn't going to make it if I didnt. I found out I had severe bronchitis and a sinus infection, yeah a double whammy. Well they took me off work until this monday. I spent from Wednesday night til today in the bed cause I had no energy and my muscles ached, fever, coughing, sneezing, no appetite hardly, just a blob in the bed. Well I was starting to feel bad cause I was laying in bed and doing nothing which always makes me feel sorry for myself and start to think things that I shouldn't. I started to dwell a little bit on the things that have taken place these past 6 months and the mistakes I have made and it wasn't a road I should have went down in my mind at all. I made myself get out of bed today and got out. I had to take Natalie to her solo and ensemble for band today anyway so I thought you know I will go shopping and look for a new couch. You have to understand that the thoughts I was having was over not having someone in my life to share it with and I was wondering if I really wanted that still or if anyone really wanted me. I read Tammy's blog she posted about its okay to be me, you all should stop by her blog and read it, and it reminded me that god made me exactly the way he wanted me and wouldn't change a thing about me and he has the one out there for me when the time is right for it. Well I haven't felt attractive at all lately and haven't felt like anyone was interested in me the way I am. The devil will try to hit you where you are most vulnerable at that moment to knock you down and try to stop you. So I was feeling sorry for myself and just let my mind go in directions of what if I were this way or that way. God had to remind me that I am who I am and that is his child uniquely made perfect in his sight. Okay now to the funny thing that happened today. God reminds us of how uniquely made we are in strange ways too. I picked Natalie up from here solo and ensemble and we all went couch shopping. We went to Valu City Furniture and looked around for almost 35 minutes before a salesperson walked over to us. Which is fine with me cause I like to look instead of someone following me around while I look. This salesman walks up to me and asks if I have any questions and I said yes I do and he said okay I'm here to serve and started to walk with me and the girls to the back of the showroom to see what I had a question about. Now keep in mind the whole time we are walking back to that area my girls are with me and this salesman starts flirting with me. He says are these ur sisters I laughed and said yeah right I don't look that young now. He says well you dont look like your that old either. I said no these are my brats. He said well they are as pretty as their mother. I raised my eyebrow at him and he said well It's true. I said ahuh yeah. Well while we are looking some couches he is talking to me the whole time about different stuff and he says to me well your a single mom and I try to look out for the single moms cause my mom raised me by myself so I know how it is. Natalie said how did you know she was a single mom? He smiled and said I didnt I was guessing she was. He was looking to see if a ring on my finger too.....LOL!! Come on laugh dont be so serious. Well to make along story short we bought a sectional and he drew up the paperwork and took me to the CSR and normally a salesperson leaves their customer with them and they move on. Well he didn't even though at the same time he was helping me their were two other couples who he was helping and had wait for him til he was done with me. I paid for my couch and he gave me his business card after the fact which I thought was strange and said here if you have any questions once you get the couch in call let me know. I took and put it in my wallet and was signing my receipt. I was getting ready to walk away and noticed he was still standing there. I looked at him as I was getting ready to leave and he smiled at me. I told the girls to get up it was time to go and he said they listen well the first time. I laughed and said well they know they better. He said well if you have any question call me. He said here let me write my cell number on the business card for you and give me a call if you have any questions about the couch. I must have given him a look cause he looked at the girls and said I give it to my customers. I knew he didnt give it to all his customers but I gave him his card back and he wrote it on there and said if you have questions about anything at all please give me a call. I stuck my hand out to shake his and said thank you and to have a good day and he kissed my hand and spoke something in another langueage to me. I smiled and walked off. As we walked out the door Natalie got ready to say something to me but stopped cause she thought I would get made at her. I said yes that man was hitting on mom. My girls were laughing and saying mom just got hit on by a guy. I thought about it after I got home and said thank you god for reminding me that I am uniquely mad and that it's okay to be me just the way I am. Thank you Tammy for writing that blog cause that allowed god to remind me that I am okay the way I am. I have struggled with that for the past few months. I hope that those of you who struggle with not being comfortable with who you are and the way you look that you will see that you are uniquely made by your father in heaven. He made you so why do you want to change it cause he made you perfect the first time. Never thought of it that way did you?
I have been taking a break from blogging lately and trying to rest and spend time with my kids. I am currently working overtime again so my time to get on the computer and blog will be much less for a while. I will cut it to once a week until work slows down.
I am happier than I've ever been and excited about what's ahead. Things have been going really well for me and I have been at peace for the first time in a long time. You all may have heard that song by Tye Tribbett "I Want It All Back", well that song has been my life for that past several months. I have been taking it all back that the devil stole from me. Tammy has told me we have some new people interested in joing W.O.W. and that is exciting. We have went through some growing pains over the past year to get ready for the harvest of people that we will be ministering to and to also be ready for the new people who will join us. It is awesome to see what is starting to take place and I can't wait to see what else lies ahead.
I have a special prayer request of everyone. It is for a friend of mine who will main nameless cause they do read my blog. They are at a point in their life that they are searching for answers and seems to be wandering around in the dark. I am there for them as a friend and I hope that my mistakes that I have made doesn't turn them from god. I hope that god can use that to show them that we all make mistakes but that he is there to forgive us and love us unconditionally. Just pray that god will get ahold of them and change their life around.
I know everyone is wanting to hear about my recent trip to NY but to tell you the truth I dont have alot to say about it other than I had a wonderful time and it wasnt long enough of a trip for me. I saw some wonder things while I was there and I just relaxed. It's exactly what I needed and I am glad I went. This trip wasn't for me to talk about it was for me to experience and to have a time for myself which I needed badly. I took some pictures of my trip. Not as many as I would have liked to but the things I saw and experienced are in my memories forever. I want to say thank you to my friend, you know who you are, for a wonderful time. I know its not what you expected to hear from me because I talk about everything on my blog. I hope everyone understands and I hope you all enjoy the pictures.
I'm going on a trip to NY in a week to get away and spend time with a friend. I don't get to do that very often cause life gets so crazy sometimes we forget to take time out for ourselves. I know as a mom I give all of my time to the kids, my job, my family, friends, and church and I don't really take for myself. This is a time for me to just go on a vacation of my own. Its the first time ever that I am doing it and it feels great to be able to do it. Don't let yourself get so bogged down by the stresses and strains of life that you forget to take time for yourself. We all need room to take a deep breath and relax. It allows us to be able to gather our strength for what life tries to throw at us.
As you know a few of the ladies and I went to glasgow and to nashville this past weekend. It was an awesome experience. Alisha who is a girl I met last year through Tammy goes to a church in glasgowky and god layed it on her heart to start a dance ministry. She didnt know anything about it or how to get started or what to do. She is familiar with our dance ministry and asked Tammy if she would come and do a workshop with them to teach them some things and just for them to learn what it is to be in a dance ministry. We never know what to expect when we go to minister as it is, we really didn't know what to expect because we have never done anything like this before. Its one thing to minister another to impart. This weekend was a new beginning for our group. There were only four of us that went, Tammy, Tammy J., Angel, and myself. On the way down I felt an excitement begin to stir up inside of me. I knew to expect something but not sure what. When we arrived at the church their were only 3 women that showed up to the workshop. Its not about the number of people its about being obedient. It wouldn't have mattered if it was 1 person god has us there to impart something to those women.
We just started off by introducing ourselves and then Tammy told them that we were just going to have free worship to begin with to set the atmosphere. They stood and watched us as we began to pick up a flag and just worship to the song playing. It was fall on me. That song has such power to it. "Fall on me, Fall on me, let your manifested glory fall one me...." How can you not worship thinking of the glory of the lord falling down over you drenching you and you basking in it. Some of us put our flags down and began to dance and do whatever we were lead to do. It was a good way to start off the day. I met a lady named Tammy. Her daughter Brittany is going to be apart of their dance ministry and she was there to just be a spectator and she also bought us all lunch, that was very sweet of her. There was a point at the end of the workshop that we did another free worship session and the song on the shekinah glory cd "praise is what I do" was playing. As I danced with my flag and just lost myself in worship closing my eyes the whole time god began to show me that lady Tammy dancing and waving a flag. I didn't say anything to her except that I saw her doing it eventually as the day ended. We went back to their church the next morning to minister at their church. It was different than we are used to. Pastor Curtis, the choir, and the praise team do an awesome job leading us in worship. This church is still in its humble beginnings and have people there that are not free in their worship yet. So it was a bit tough for us to get through their praise and worship, but it doesn't matter where you are you can worship god in any circumstance. They turned the service over to us after that. We did the service much like we do when we normally go out except we initiated Angel this weekend. This was her first time going out with us and she got up to testify and she spoke with such love and without much effort. She later said she was a bundle of nerves and had so much going in her head she thought she was fumbling over her words. You would never know it. God has a way of making our jumbled messes come out beautiful. When the service ended the pastor got up in front of his congregation and all he said at first was WOW. We laughed and he said it again cause he was almost speechless. He had a sermon all ready to preach on praise and worship but he said it was pointless because they had already been ministered to about that through our dance and testimonies. He said if you missed that one then there isn't anything i can do for you. He had us come up front and everyone came by and gave us hugs and words of encouragement. That lady Tammy I spoke about came up to me and looked at me and said, "You and I are alot alike. We have went through some similar things and I want to thank you for sharing that with us it touched me. She began to cry and I gave her a hug and said you have been called this weekend and god is waiting for you to step into what he has for you. She smiled and said I know. I am not usually one to say something unless i feel led by god to say it. We loaded up from there and went to Nashville. This was a different experience than I ever expected. It was a southern baptist church to begin with. We had no idea what to expect. They had us begin the service and Tammy J. sang. That girl can sing. Dont let her being quiet fool you she is a firecracker for jesus. Then we did the service much like we did that morning. Tammy had asked earlier that morning when we were in glasgow what song she thought she should do for her solo dance. She was going to do alabastor box, but i kept hearing into the holy of holies in my spirit so i told her she should do that one. She said really, I said yeah. She ended the service in that southern baptist church with that song. There was a young girl who was helping us do our music and while Tammy was dancing that dance she was intently watching her. She began to let tears flow down her face. At one point in the song Tammy had turned right at her and was a couple of feet away from her while she was dancing and the girl began to weep a little harder. That song is powerful anyway but with the dance it ministered to that girl in a way that no one else but god could do. You could see it on her face. When we were finished the minister came up and began to speak. I dont remember much of what he said other than this, "If you feel like dancing dance, if you feel like shouting shout, don't let religion hold you back in your worhip". He then pulled out oil from behind the podium and asked Tammy to come up and he wanted the whole church to pray for her and us. Keep in mind this is a southern baptist church, they don't do things like that there. It was the most awesome experience. Everyone we met over the weekend was so kind and sweet. I will never forget them and I wont forget the way god touched each of our lives either.
I know god is opening up a new door for us to step into and this past weekend was the first step into many other things to come. Keep us in your prayers.
This was just a thought that I had the other day while I was thinking about the people that have come and gone in my life.
"People come in and out of your life like a car that stops at the drive through. They come into your life for a short period of time and then they move on. It's not a sad thing its just life and god didn't always mean for every person you meet to stay in your life. He brings people by your way for a season when you need them the most or when they may need you. I have had many friends come my way and they have all enriched my life in some way or another. I have been blessed with some good friends who have been there with me through some very difficult times and they have stayed in my life. I am truly blessed for that. So don't be sad as people come and go into your life take the time you have been given with them and enjoy it"
