Stronger And Stronger It Grows

Monday I had written on my facebook page that I was taking a break from facebook and being on the Internet other than to write on my blog. I have had this fire ignite in me and I have been praying to God to not let me grow cold and let the flame go out. I have hungered for him more than ever and the hunger grows stronger and stronger everyday. He told me in order for me to keep that burning I had to get things in order. I was like OK God whatever you need me to do. It may sound funny to you all, but the first thing he told me to do is to get my apartment in order and cleaned up and cleaned out. I was like OK what does this have to do with anything God. He says just do what I ask. So I have begun to get my apartment in order. I am not all the way finished but by this weekend I will have it done. My apartment has been such a mess for a while now that it has distracted me from wanting to spend time with God. Then on Monday he told me to stay off of the Internet for a while. The only thing I can do is write on my blog and post it on my facebook then that's it. I was like OK I can do that no problem. Well I didn't realize how much I had used my facebook on my mobile until I wasn't able to do it this week. I was on it on and off all day long. It was distracting me when I would get home from work or at my lunch and breaks that I could have been spending time with God. Then Tuesday nite I had an extremely long day at work. I worked 12 hrs with no lunch because it was the end of the month. I was exhausted and my body was hurting badly. I had went home ate a little bit and then went to bed. I remember thinking to myself I just want more of you as I went to sleep. I had a dream on repeat all nite long. Have you all ever had that happen? I did and it was a dream of me dancing to the song "Show Me Your Glory" by Lakewood Church. I absolutely love that song. I had that dream all nite along until I opened my eyes on Wednesday morning. That song has been in my spirit for a while but now it has a whole new meaning for me. God has begun to show me that In order for him to show us his glory we have to be willing to push all the distractions away, give up some things, clean up some things, and to watch what we put into our spirits by the way of television and music. Its one thing to pray and tell God you want more of him, but its another to do it. We often make excuses as to why we cant spend more time with him. Its because I was too tired from working 12 hrs, I had too much to do at home, I had to go here and take the kids there, there is nothing wrong with watching this it doesn't have anything really bad in it, I like this song why cant I listen to it..it doesn't talk about anything sexual or anything. What you put into your spirit man affects your thoughts and actions to things more than you know. We need to stop and take a few minutes and say OK God let me make you my number one priority and put only the things into me that you want me to have, let me do the things that you want me to do. I am not saying that you cant do things or watch things but watch what you put into yourself. I choose to keep something out of my spirit and only want him to fill me with more of him. I want him to show me his glory in a way that I have never experienced before. I want to be in that intimate moment with him when no one else is there, but him and I. I want to be able to reach out and touch him and have him wrap me in him. That's why I love this song because its exactly how I feel right now. I want him to show me his glory. Here is that song and I want you to listen to it and listen to the words. I'm sure most of you have heard it before, but listen to it with new ears and let it get into your spirit. My prayer is that he will show his glory to you like never before.

Take Out The Trash

My pastor has some of the most unique analogies I have ever heard and they stick with you too. He was talking about have anyone ever tried to throw away an old garbage can. You sit it out there with the rest of your garbage and its split down the middle and torn. The garbage men come to pick up the trash and they take everything but that torn up garbage can. Then the next day you sit it out there again and they leave it yet again. Day after day you could sit that trash can out there and the garbage men wont pick it up. Why? Thats what garbage is supposed to go into so they wont pick it up. You literally have to tear the garbage can to pieces and put it in a trash bag in order for them to take it. Isnt that how it is with us as chritians. We keep playing on the edge of sin day after day and then come to church on sundays like that garabage can that never got picked up. You cant let the sins of your past or present to keep coming back. You have to let God scrape, tear, and demolish all that sin thats in your heart so that it can be taken away like the trash can that was broken.

My Prayer For My Journey Ahead

Keep the flame ignited in me God. Don't let me be foolish enough to let it burn out. Guide me with your hand and give me the strength and the wisdom for the journey ahead. Though the road maybe rough at times I know that you are there with me pushing the obstacles out of my way. God I want lay in your arms and breath in everything you have for me. I want to be in that secret place surrounded by your glory. Take me to places I've never been soaring higher and higher. I want to be where you want me to be and do as you want me to do. God I surrender my mind, heart, soul, my entire life to you to do have me do as you will. No looking back or looking side to side. My eyes are focused ahead to walk th path you have layed out. Though I may not know the destination I am heading to I have to trust that you have it all under control. You never promised it would be easy, but I know you will let me see the road clearly I am walking on once you remove the obstacles that I have allowed to hold me back. Yeah an AHH HAAA Moment isnt it :)

Sooo Hungry!!!!

Have you ever been so hungry you thought that your stomach was going to eat itself if you didn't get something to eat. That is how I have been hungering for God lately. I hunger for him so much that I crave him more than I ever have. He has ignited the flame inside me and its burning so much that I can feel the heat from it constantly. He doesn't want me to forget that burning he placed inside me so he is keeping it going in me. I was laying in the bed this morning at 5am wide awake and was just thinking how my life would be without him. It would be a chaotic mess and I would be just as lost as the rest of the world. This was my prayer yesterday as I was getting ready for bed.....

"God I want lay in you arms and breath in everything you have for me. I want to be in that secret place surrounded by your glory. Take me to places I've never been soaring higher and higher. I want to be where you want me to be and do as you want me to do."

The Mind A War Zone

Have you ever just had a bad week where it seemed nothing was coming together the way it should? Everything was going through your mind a thousand miles and hour and you start to worry and let fear take over. We battle our own mind more than any other thing that we face as Christians. Its more of a war zone than a real battle at times. We have to renew our minds constantly. We have to renew our minds not only daily, but sometimes moment by moment when we are in the midst of all the thoughts that over take our minds. Let God give you peace and rest in your mind. We have to remember that there are things that are out of our control and let him handle it. Having true faith... in God is knowing he has in all under control and letting him calm your fears. I wish i could say that fear goes away and never comes back. The enemy tries to keep us in that place of worry and fear in our mind. God didn't give us a spirit of fear. We have to stand against it and say my daddy has it all taken care of so I need not worry anymore. Its easy for someone to say don't let it bother you God has it all taken care of when they are not the ones going through it. You have to determine in your own mind, heart, and soul that you are not going to let the enemy torment you anymore. When we do that then God can take over and give you peace of mind. No matter how bad the thoughts get in your mind just take a moment to renew your mind and take rest and refuge in him. He is the only one whom we can take comfort in.

His Arms Are Wide Open

I was listening to some music today and I found this song and it made me think. People are looking for love and they search and search and search and when they think they find it...it leaves them emptier than they were before. Alot of people have their own idea of what they think love is or what it should look like. Listening to the words of this song has me look back into my own past and see what it is I thought love was. I made many mistakes in the past with the relationships I got myself into. I let men use me because of the sweet words they would try to say to me and make me feel like they loved me when they really didn't. They wanted what they could get from me and I was foolish enough to give it to them. Even as a born again christian I had my struggles in the past with giving myself freely to the person I was with. Yes I am talking about sex. As Christians we know it isn't right to have sex outside of marriage but our need to have someone love us back sometimes clouds our thinking when we are not in tune with God. When we keep him first in our lives and we let him show us the love he has for us and what he has done for us then nothing else seems to matter. It took me a long time even as a christian to get my thinking straight and to keep him first in everything. I struggled for years with it and was ashamed of myself for letting myself get into relationships with men and have sex when they wanted to with me. The pain ran deeper inside me than I would ever let anyone know, but God knew. He was waiting for me to say I give it all to you and let him come in and repair the hurt and to heal all the scars left behind. I am here today to say that he has healed my hurts of the past and now God is placing inside me more of him. I like how this song says: "If anybodys looking for love in all the wrong places
If youve been searching for love, come to Me. Come to me.
Take up your cross. Deny yourself.
Forget your fathers house and run. Run with Me.
Cause you were made for abandon your heart and listen
Cause you were made for Someone greater, Someone bigger, so follow Me.
And youll come alive when you learn to die.
And He said to me...You shall love me."

This song brought me to tears today, because I know how hard the road was for me and I see so many people out there who are on the same path I was and some even worse than me. It pains my heart to see people hurting and looking for love in all the wrong places. My prayer is that they find Jesus and let him love them just as they are and right where they are.

JUST BELIEVE

NO LIMITS!!! NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD. LET HIM TAKE U SO U CAN SOAR. YOUR TIME IS RIGHT NOW TO JUST RECEIVE IF U JUST BELIEVE THERE IS NO LIMITS. Alot of you say we believe that there are no limits to what God can do....but do you believe that? Let him speak to you and show you just what he has in store. The problem is you want to know everything now. So in your mind you have put limitations on God. Stand out on the beach at 5am in the morning as the sun is rising and look out at the ocean and see how you cannot see beyond the horizon. Just because you cant see beyond the horizon doesn't mean that there isn't more out there. So shake loose the limitations in your mind and GET READY FOR WHAT GOD HAS IN STORE.