Overcome-SONG - DONT JUST LISTEN WORSHIP

When we were out in St. Louis Charmaine played this song for us and I just cried listening to it. I just thought I would share it on my blog with everyone. Don't just listen to it worship with it. This song makes me want to dance til I fall down on my knees and just lay there at his feet.

Dont Hold Back

I recently went to St. Louis with the Dance It Out team to minister in a friend of ours christmas program at their church. There are alot of reasons why this past weekend was a divine appointment, but I think the reason I was supposed to be there was to re-affirm that I am where I am supposed to be and to show me that there are greater things ahead. There are times I feel so clumsy when I dance and I say God why do you have me dancing I dont have any ability I ache all the time and I am sure someone else can do it better than me. He gently puts his arms around me and holds me tight and says, but you said yes when I asked. When I was in St. Louis I messed up during the first service dancing and I felt so bad about it afterwards, but no one noticed or if they did they never said anything. Something that Curtis said to us before we left when we were talking about everything that weekend. He said this church is so used to everything being perfect that they need to see that its not about perfection but about your heart and willingness to put yourself out there for God to do something. There are going to be times when you step out and do what God has called you to do that you will mess up and you will feel as if someone else can do it better but don't let that stop you from the call he placed on your life. He wasnt looking for perfection he was looking for someone to say yes I will. I dont look for compliments or nice words when I dance and its hard for me to take the compliments when given. I do what I do because God asked me to step out and do it for him and because I just can't sit still and just raise my hands anymore. For all he has done in me I want to shout and dance and show him how much I love him. I sometimes wonder what people would do if God just walked in the church would they just stand there or sit in there chairs. I know everyone has their own way to worship I am not knocking anyone's way of doing it but do you think about what you are singing about? If you truly did it would make you want to fall at his feet and worship or get up and shout to the heavens praises to him. Next time you see me or any of the team doing flags or dancing don't just sit there if you feel like dancing and shouting get up and do it. Our whole purpose is to help others enter into worship in a deeper way. Don't let what other people may think hold you back. It doesn't matter how silly you think you look stop letting that mindset hold you back.

Don't Let Your Words Destroy Someone

I watched two people go at it today at work and not handle themselves in a very good manner today. It made me sad to see both of them not handle the situation and could very well have resulted in both of them being terminated. I see so many people that always want to blame the other person for why they behaved in such a bad manner when it really boils down to how you handle yourself. It doesn't matter how another person treats or speaks to you. The only control you have is over yourself and how you deal with the situation. When I was very young I would say things without thinking how it may make the person feel or if I was making the stiutation worse. We shouldn't be quick to say things out of anger or hurt. We should use wisdom in what we allow to come out of our mouths. It took me alot of years to learn that. That's not to say that I may not want to say some things out of anger, but I stop myself and ask God to help me change how I handle myself and what I allow to come out of my mouth. The tongue is a powerful weapon and if misused it can cause destruction in someone's life. I don't know about you but I don't want my words to destroy someone I want them to uplift and encourage them.

Sharing My Thanksgiving Thoughts

This is something I wrote last year and posted it on my notes in facebook and I thought I would share it with. "Thank you God for loving me enough to send your son to die for me even when I know I don't deserve it. Thank you for always being there thru every circumstance good or bad and despite my selfishness you still extended grace to me. Thank you for giving me another day to breath and to be able to worship you and to have a small part in helping others to come to Christ. Thank you for always forgiving me when I make a wrong choice and willfully doing it but yet you still forgive me when I ask. Thank you for placing people around me that lift me up in prayer and encouragement when I have no strength of my own to do it myself. Thank you for the blessing of giving me my girls who despite my not being the best of moms at times they love you with all their heart and choose to serve you. Thank you for my parents and their unconditional love for me and there wisdom to point me the right way when I sometimes didnt want to listen. Thank you for the church you have placed me in that is a loving church that just wants to serve you in anyway they can no matter how small or big. I have so many other things to be thankful for and my list could go on forever even down to the smallest of things. Knowing that he has my name written down in heaven is what I'm most thankful for because without Jesus dying for my sins I wouldn't have my name written in heaven. What is it you are thankful for the most? NOV. 25th 2010" .

20+ Years Later

I had an old friend come into town this past weekend and came to church to visit. He and I go way back and he knew me back when I wasnt in a good place in my life and neither was he. He said to my pastor that 20+ years ago you never would have gotten her up there to dance and do flags. He's right I wouldn't have done it for nothing. I have grown and learned so much in those 20+ years and Im in a different walk with God. I have had to learn that it's not about me it's all about HIM. I have to die to my selfish nature every day and ask God what it is he wants. It's not always easy I find myself being selfish at times and do what I want to anyway. I don't ever want to go back to that place where I was at all those years ago. I was a christian who struggled and wanted to be loved by someone. I wasn't satisfied being myself and always wanted to be accepted. I cared what others thought of me back then instead of caring what God thought and wanted for my life. I spent way too many years looking for love in a man and got myself into bad relationships and started those relationships off the wrong way every time. I am finally in a place to where I seek after God and don't worry so much about whether I have someone to share my life with. I am never alone he is always with me no matter where I am. I have my kids and a great family, a wonderful church family, and some pretty awesome friends. I look for his approval not the approval of man. I stopped seeking out someone to date or be in a relationship with. I had to get myself in a place where I was sick enough of my circumstances and going around the same tree so to speak over and over again that I finally cried out to God and said I only want what you want for my life. If I go through this life with no one to share it with then I am ok with that. God has done a work in my life and I am not about to throw it all away on a temporary pleasure because I have been fooled into thinking I have to have someone in my life. It makes me sad to see that there are so many people out there that are in the same place I was for all those years. Don't make the mistake of seeking after a man/woman approval and for their love. That only leads down a path of never-ending void inside you. I am thankful that God had patience enough and loved me enough to bring me to the place I am at now in my life. Bury your heart so deep into God so that person who seeks after you has to seek God's heart to find yours.

Moment By Moment

You wake up in the morning and first thoughts in your mind are..I have to get the kids up, what am I going to make for breakfast, how am I going to pay that bill, I have to get that report done for work, someone is in the hospital in your family and you worry how they are, all these busy thoughts. Then your feet hit the floor and you begin your day with stress and worry. You get the kids off to school and you get yourself ready for work. While you are walking out the door for work you see a neighbor who is going through a rough time and you have been trying to be there for them. Then you get in your car and drive to work. You get to work and deal with the stresses at work. Your mind gets bogged down because your boss or a co-worker is not being as nice as they should be to people. You go to lunch and while you are in the line at Sonic you see a homeless man who is asking people for money to eat and everyone passes him up. You reach in to your purse and give him a $10 bill and hand it to him all the while your worry about the stress that awaits you at work. Then its back to work but all the day you worry about the bills that are piling up and it weighs on your mind. You leave work and get a phone call from someone who just wants you to listen to their problems so you listen to them on your way home from work. You get home then the kids are arguing and they are asking for this and that and you just want a moment to yourself. You get dinner done then you get a shower and try to wind down but you still have all this on your mind and it never shuts down. By the end of the day your exhausted and you just want to go to sleep. Often times this is how it is we don't start are day off with God. We say well I dont have the time to in the morning I have too much to do. There is always time to make for God if you just stop and be still. Most of us don't want to stop and be still because then all the flood of thoughts take over and we dont know how to stop them from over taking our mind. You never seem to get peace of mind. Most people dont know what peace of mind is or how to get it. We are to take rest in God and give him all the burdens for us not to carry them anymore. You say how do I do that? You do it moment by moment. Whenever you start to have a flood of thoughts that are over taking you and you are stressing out just stop in that moment and say God I praise you and thank you for my peace of mind and I give it all to you. You may have to do that a thousand times a day until you get peace of mind. Don't let the enemy have a foot hold in your mind he has no power unless you give it to him. The enemy wants us to have our minds full of chaos so that we are not hearing God speak to us. We can't hear him because we don't get still and listen. It's not going to be easy for some to just be still and quiet thats when you stop and take it moment by moment and just praise HIM.

My Prayer Today To My Father

Just the thought of being without you in my life is enough to bring me to my knees. I can't think of anyone or anything else. There isn't anything that I wouldn't do for you or anything I wouldn't give up. To wake up and start my morning off spending time with you makes my day full of joy and to be able to face the day whatever challenges I may face. I want to tell everyone of how much I love you and what you have done for me and what you will do for them. I want to be lost in your presence. If anyone man wants to have my heart he will have to seek you because my heart is held by you and he will have to seek you to get to me. The love I have for you is unexplainable in meer words. I sometimes am speechless at the thought of how you love me so much that you would send your Son to die for me. I long to do your will and wait for your guidance and not to jump into what I want but wait for what you want. I am your vessel use me as you will. When I dance its only for you and for you to use me to speak to others. I am nothing without you in my life.