On the Mountain Top.....Then Down In The Valley

I'm on a mountain top right now and I cant see where anything ends. I feel like I'm unbreakable and unstoppable with God on my side. When you are on that mountain top you have to guard yourself even more so than you did when you were climbing that mountain. The enemy is just waiting for you to inch towards the edge of the mountain ledge and hope that you will fall off the mountain. He will do whatever he thinks he can do to get you to choose to fall off. Yes I said choose. Do you think that Satan can make you do anything? Its by our own choices that we fall. Yes he tempts us but he doesn't make us do anything. We choose to give him the power over us and we choose to either fall or sometimes jump off that mountain top. I have been at the top before and have made bad choices and fell off that mountain and there was a time in my life I chose to jump off because I didn't care. It makes me sad to see Christians climb that mountain and get to the top and they get comfortable and think well God will catch me if I fall. Yes he catches us if we fall, but there are times when he will allow us to fall and we have to suffer the consequences of our mistakes. What does it take for us to learn that we cant do anything without him? Does it take losing everything we have and be at the bottom of the mountain down in the valley so low that all we can do is look up to him?

No matter how impossible things look and how bad of a mistake you have made God is right there waiting with open arms for you ready to wipe the tears from your eyes. Take comfort and rest in him let him heal your mind, heart, and soul. He will give you peace of mind and renew your thinking and your strength. He will fill you so full of himself you cant contain it and you are overflowing of him and it will spill over everyone you come in contact with. I pray right now that for those of you who are down in the valley and you feel you are not worthy for him to love or to care about that he will make himself real to you right now right where you are. It doesn't matter what you have done or how long you have been away from him he loves you and hes waiting for you to say daddy I'm home. Don't let Satan have power over you make your mind up that no matter what that you give God everything and let him take over.

Long Time Answer To Prayer

This past weekend I had a longtime answer to prayer happen. My girls half sister Rachel came to stay with us Saturday nite. I have been trying for many years to get her mom and dad to let her come and visit and stay with us so that the girls could get to know each other and have a relationship but I hit a brick wall every time. We all had a very candid discussion about alot things from the past that answered alot of questions for her and cleared alot of things up. I wont go into any detail because that is personal things that you don't want shared with anyone else, but I was glad to be of some help to her. To see the girls be able to have a relationship was a huge relief for me. They had all wanted to know each other and it was good to see them laughing talking and getting to know one another. I hope that this is just the beginning of it and that they continue to form a relationship with each other. If there is something that you have been praying about for years and years and you still haven't seen it happen don't be discouraged just keep on praying and don't give up. The enemy tried everything he could to keep my prayer from being answered but I knew some day that my prayer would be answered. Sometimes its not that God doesn't want our prayers answered but maybe other people involved don't want to allow things to happen so God in his infinite wisdom and timing will work things out.

Living Proof That God Is Real

We finally got moved into our new place over this past weekend. My first nite in the new place was great and I slept so sound...its because I had been up for over 30 plus hours lol. I had some wonderful friends come and help me move as well as my sister and her husband. I was so thankful that they helped and I don't know how to say it enough to them. Once we had everything moved into the new place I had everyone annoint the doors, walls, cabinets, etc...everything they could get and pray over the new place. It was an emotional moment for me when everyone did that and my sis and brother in law prayed for me too. I couldn't hold back the tears of joy I felt at that moment. It had been a long journey to get there and alot of lessons learned along the way. I had woke up in the middle of the nite during our first nite there and walked into the girls room and just stood there and watched them sleeping like I used to do when they were small. It was so peaceful and a big weight lifted at that moment from me. I had been carrying the weight of some past things for a long time and at that moment God lifted the weight from my shoulders and said look back no more. I am still in awe and humbled by it all. My life has drastically changed over the last 3 yrs, especially in this past year. I have moved to a new church, been blessed with some wonderful new friends, been promoted at my job and a raise, moved into a new place, my daughter Olivia joining the dance ministry, Natalie taking more responsibility at home now(which may not seem like much but believe me its a big thing), and soooo many other little things that people take for granted has come about in just one years time. I have made my share of mistakes, but God has given me the wisdom to keep me from making them again. This journey of mine is FAR from over its just beginning...actually its a new beginning of a new journey in my life. God has some things in store ahead and I can't wait to see what they are. I know that there will probably be some obstacles, but he never said it would be easy. Did you Take up your cross and follow me indicated that it was going to be easy? I know without any doubts that he is there with me always and helping me through whatever come along and will give me the strength I need to make it through. I'm looking forward to see what this year holds and I'm sure you will be hearing from me from time to time about whats going on and what God is doing. If there is any doubt in your minds about whether God is real there shouldn't be because I'm living breathing proof that he is real and loves each and every one of us.

The Home Stretch!!!!

This last few weeks has been like running a long marathon and its getting down to the home stretch, but its seems you tire out, ache, and want to give up, but something inside you says no you can do it its the home stretch you have a little more inside you push through the pain, exhaustion, and frustration. You have come too far to give up now. That's been my life these past few weeks between being sick, alot going on at work, trying to pack, death in the family, and just the every day things that come at you on a regular basis. I found myself saying God I'm so tired and weak I dont know if I can move another centimeter. He stretched out his arms and said if you would just stop trying so hard and let me take over you wouldn't be so weary and exhausted from trying do to it on your own. That's how it is with us we get in this mode of trying to do things on our own and make things happen that only God can do. I know I have been guilty of it last few weeks. He told me to slow down and let him do the work its only by his hand that things will fall into place and I have to have patience. So if you find yourself trying to get in the middle of what God is doing and take over....STOP!!!! Save yourself the worry and stress and let him take over. After all he is God not you.