Saturday, January 26, 2008

Take A Deep Breath

I'm going on a trip to NY in a week to get away and spend time with a friend. I don't get to do that very often cause life gets so crazy sometimes we forget to take time out for ourselves. I know as a mom I give all of my time to the kids, my job, my family, friends, and church and I don't really take for myself. This is a time for me to just go on a vacation of my own. Its the first time ever that I am doing it and it feels great to be able to do it. Don't let yourself get so bogged down by the stresses and strains of life that you forget to take time for yourself. We all need room to take a deep breath and relax. It allows us to be able to gather our strength for what life tries to throw at us.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

What A Weekend!

As you know a few of the ladies and I went to glasgow and to nashville this past weekend. It was an awesome experience. Alisha who is a girl I met last year through Tammy goes to a church in glasgow ky and god layed it on her heart to start a dance ministry. She didnt know anything about it or how to get started or what to do. She is familiar with our dance ministry and asked Tammy if she would come and do a workshop with them to teach them some things and just for them to learn what it is to be in a dance ministry. We never know what to expect when we go to minister as it is, we really didn't know what to expect because we have never done anything like this before. Its one thing to minister another to impart. This weekend was a new beginning for our group. There were only four of us that went, Tammy, Tammy J., Angel, and myself. On the way down I felt an excitement begin to stir up inside of me. I knew to expect something but not sure what. When we arrived at the church their were only 3 women that showed up to the workshop. Its not about the number of people its about being obedient. It wouldn't have mattered if it was 1 person god has us there to impart something to those women.

We just started off by introducing ourselves and then Tammy told them that we were just going to have free worship to begin with to set the atmosphere. They stood and watched us as we began to pick up a flag and just worship to the song playing. It was fall on me. That song has such power to it. "Fall on me, Fall on me, let your manifested glory fall one me...." How can you not worship thinking of the glory of the lord falling down over you drenching you and you basking in it. Some of us put our flags down and began to dance and do whatever we were lead to do. It was a good way to start off the day. I met a lady named Tammy. Her daughter Brittany is going to be apart of their dance ministry and she was there to just be a spectator and she also bought us all lunch, that was very sweet of her. There was a point at the end of the workshop that we did another free worship session and the song on the shekinah glory cd "praise is what I do" was playing. As I danced with my flag and just lost myself in worship closing my eyes the whole time god began to show me that lady Tammy dancing and waving a flag. I didn't say anything to her except that I saw her doing it eventually as the day ended. We went back to their church the next morning to minister at their church. It was different than we are used to. Pastor Curtis, the choir, and the praise team do an awesome job leading us in worship. This church is still in its humble beginnings and have people there that are not free in their worship yet. So it was a bit tough for us to get through their praise and worship, but it doesn't matter where you are you can worship god in any circumstance. They turned the service over to us after that. We did the service much like we do when we normally go out except we initiated Angel this weekend. This was her first time going out with us and she got up to testify and she spoke with such love and without much effort. She later said she was a bundle of nerves and had so much going in her head she thought she was fumbling over her words. You would never know it. God has a way of making our jumbled messes come out beautiful. When the service ended the pastor got up in front of his congregation and all he said at first was WOW. We laughed and he said it again cause he was almost speechless. He had a sermon all ready to preach on praise and worship but he said it was pointless because they had already been ministered to about that through our dance and testimonies. He said if you missed that one then there isn't anything i can do for you. He had us come up front and everyone came by and gave us hugs and words of encouragement. That lady Tammy I spoke about came up to me and looked at me and said, "You and I are alot alike. We have went through some similar things and I want to thank you for sharing that with us it touched me. She began to cry and I gave her a hug and said you have been called this weekend and god is waiting for you to step into what he has for you. She smiled and said I know. I am not usually one to say something unless i feel led by god to say it. We loaded up from there and went to Nashville. This was a different experience than I ever expected. It was a southern baptist church to begin with. We had no idea what to expect. They had us begin the service and Tammy J. sang. That girl can sing. Dont let her being quiet fool you she is a firecracker for jesus. Then we did the service much like we did that morning. Tammy had asked earlier that morning when we were in glasgow what song she thought she should do for her solo dance. She was going to do alabastor box, but i kept hearing into the holy of holies in my spirit so i told her she should do that one. She said really, I said yeah. She ended the service in that southern baptist church with that song. There was a young girl who was helping us do our music and while Tammy was dancing that dance she was intently watching her. She began to let tears flow down her face. At one point in the song Tammy had turned right at her and was a couple of feet away from her while she was dancing and the girl began to weep a little harder. That song is powerful anyway but with the dance it ministered to that girl in a way that no one else but god could do. You could see it on her face. When we were finished the minister came up and began to speak. I dont remember much of what he said other than this, "If you feel like dancing dance, if you feel like shouting shout, don't let religion hold you back in your worhip". He then pulled out oil from behind the podium and asked Tammy to come up and he wanted the whole church to pray for her and us. Keep in mind this is a southern baptist church, they don't do things like that there. It was the most awesome experience. Everyone we met over the weekend was so kind and sweet. I will never forget them and I wont forget the way god touched each of our lives either.

I know god is opening up a new door for us to step into and this past weekend was the first step into many other things to come. Keep us in your prayers.



Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Like A Drive Thru?

This was just a thought that I had the other day while I was thinking about the people that have come and gone in my life.


"People come in and out of your life like a car that stops at the drive through. They come into your life for a short period of time and then they move on. It's not a sad thing its just life and god didn't always mean for every person you meet to stay in your life. He brings people by your way for a season when you need them the most or when they may need you. I have had many friends come my way and they have all enriched my life in some way or another. I have been blessed with some good friends who have been there with me through some very difficult times and they have stayed in my life. I am truly blessed for that. So don't be sad as people come and go into your life take the time you have been given with them and enjoy it"

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Never Boring!

Just when you think church is routine then god takes over. It's never boring at church and god always shows up. Today was no exception. It was only Tammy J. and myself doing flags today which was odd for us because we usually dont have that much room. We took advantage of it....lol!

Saturday the ladies and I had come together to practice because we were supposed to dance today, but Tammy pulled a muscle in her back. It threw us all for a moment or two and Tammy said pray for me now. We dropped what we were doing and prayed. She is a remarkable woman of faith. She pushes through despite what obstacles are thrown at her and she has tremendous strength. We are supposed to go to Glasgow, Ky and Nashville,Tn next weekend. Please keep us in prayer as we go to help another church begin a dance ministry. It isn't about talent and ability its about having a heart of worship. We may know alot about the dance ministry but we know it takes the annointing of god for it to touch lives. We have been asked to minister at a church in Nashville on sunday evening and I am excited because Tammy is finally going to step out of that box and into what god has called her to do. You are gonna be hearing miraculous things happening from W.O.W. Please pray that we have a safe trip, that everyone is well, and most importanly that god shows himself through us. We appreciate all the support we get from our church family and from Pastor and the staff.

This is just the beginning of the journey for us and every step we take has been layed out before us all we have to do is be obedient and walk it.



Monday, January 7, 2008

A Time Of Transition

This week has been a good week for me. I don't have anything profound to tell you other than I have never felt such peace and joy in my life. Daniel was dead on wednesday night. He is a such a blessing and he tells it like it is. He has such a heart for people and you can see it on his face and when he speaks. The atmosphere was so charged that night I could have basked in it all night. Have you ever just got so caught up in your worship that you feel like you are right there at his thrown? That's what its been like for me everytime I worship lately. I feel as if he has brought into to his thrown.

Please keep me in prayer as I move forward with god has for me to do. He is taking our dance group a new direction. I am so excited I can't hardly stand it.

Tranisition is never easy whether it's in a good situation or bad, but it's necessary to be able to move forward with what god has planned for your life.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Addictions - The Road To Healing

Today was an awesome time at church. It was our ordinate sunday and a time to look back at what god has done in 2007 and to look ahead to 2008. Praise and worship was great as always and I felt like no one else was there today but me and god. I love those moments. Pastor was summing up the year we had and taking in new members to the church. I always cry when I see new people join and make NVMC their church home. At the end of the service they did water baptism for new converts as well as new beginnings. I was especially connected to this one because my former boyfriend who you all have seen me write about was baptized today and spoke of how a sexual addiction had gotten a deep hold on his life. I was happy to see him finally come clean about it and to move past it. He didn't mention my name out of respect for me, but anyone who goes to church there probably knows it was me. I told him he could share what ever he thought necessary. This wasn't about me it was about him and the addiction that had such a stronghold on his life. I spent 6 years with him and even though I loved him it was hell. I was constantly battling things that I didn't understand that was taking place and once I did know what I was battling then it was how do you get rid of it. I still really don't understand to the extent his addiction was and why it come about and maybe I never will, but I do know that I was proud of him for starting to make the changes necessary for him to get healing. It still doesn't change my mind about our relationship because that door has closed, but I still want to see him set free totally. I don't know what its like to have an addiction to something so its hard for me to understand. I know we all have our things we battle, but addiction of any kind wasn't one I ever dealt with. I do know that whatever it is your addicted to its take ahold of your life and turns your world upside down. It doesn't just affect you it affects everyone around. I am no expert on that but if you find yourself wrestling with an addiction seek help from a pastor, counselor, or someone who will tell you like it is. Then get down on your knees and seek god and ask him to help you through it. He doesn't always take the addiction away instantly sometimes you have to walk a tough road of healing. It can be painful for you and the people around you, but god will give you strength through it all. No matter how deep the valley is always know that he went there before you and walked it, He will be right there with you through it, and he will be there on the other side when you come out. He will never leave you alone. There will be moments where you will feel as if he has left you for dead, but he hasn't. God will never put anymore on you than you can handle. It seems like if someone put a feather on us we would crack from all the pressure of the situation, but god is our rock and our refuge. Trust in him and he will see you through it. Please keep Andrew in prayer because he still has a long road ahead of him. He has tried many times before to be free and he needs all the support he can get from his church family. This is a new beginning for him and with the support of friends, family, and his church family he can be set totally free and step into what god has planned for his life.

Thursday, January 3, 2008

Strange But Good Week

It's been a strange week for me. I have been proposed to by a good friend of mine four times this week, I have been asked out on a couple of dates, and I just found out I have vacation time coming, my car door wouldn't shut all the way so i had to drive holding the door so it wouldn't fly open, I told told you it's been a strange week. You gotta laugh at all the crazy things that come at you in a days time. If I were to let everything get to me I would be a basket case. With me you never know what is gonna happen, what I am going to say or do. I like it that way it keeps people guessing about me......LOL!!! I have been in a great mood this week. It's like I just woke up from a good nights sleep. I feel better than I ever have and I have laughed so much this week it has hurt, that's a good thing. I lost my joy and laughter for a while and god has helped me find it again. It was like I was wandering around in darkness trying to feel my way through, but because I couldn't feel anything but my pain I couldn't find my way. Have you ever been so hurt that you go numb? That is how I was for such a longtime. I know how to put on the good face for people so if you couldn't tell that's why. I went alot of years of my life putting on a mask hiding what I was feeling and going through. I didn't put one on to deceive anyone I put it on so I could get through the day without feeling the pain. I know that sounds silly, but that is how I thought I should handle it. Pastor says fake it til you make it. I know what he means now. I thank god that I made it out the other side because the valley was so low that I almost didn't come out of it. It was a long journey, but he was there every step of the way. I know that there are probably more valleys to go through, but I know he has walked it before me, will be there with me through it and lead me out the other side. For those of you who are single like me don't let anyone take the place of god. You may not intend for that to happen but often times we get so wrapped up in a relationship that we put them before god. Wait on god and let him guide you to the one he has for you. I myself am not looking I am happy being single and wanting to go forward with the path god has layed out for me. If you read my blog you are liable to hear me say anything. Whatever is going on with me at that moment is what you will see me write most of the time and from time to time what god has shared with me. I love writing and i have many things I have written. I will share some of these in the coming weeks as god leads me to. God Bless and keep me in your prayers.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

One Step At A Time

That's what this walk with god is all about one step at a time. 2007 is over and 2008 begins. Its a year of new beginnings for me and a time of walking into the unknown with god. I don't yet know where he is going to take me, but wherever it is he knows I will go. I have such antisipation in my spirit for what lies ahead for this year. I know that god is going to take W.O.W. to a places we have not been before to minister to people we probably never would have had a chance to minister to. 2007 was a time of refining for our group and we all had to go through some difficult times last year in order for him to prepare us for the journey we are about to take in 2008. We had to be prepared for the awesome things that are going to take place right before our eyes. He had to get us to a place where we only depend on him and that no matter what we never let or faith be shaken. Each of one of the ladies have had their own journey to walk and have come out of it with such renewed strength that the devil can't stop us now. He has thrown things in front of each of us to try and stop us so that we wouldn't be able to fufill the call that god has placed on us. We are stronger than ever as a group and as individuals. We have all prayed and fasted for each other, cried and laughed with each other, worshiped with each other, and now its time for us to step into what god has layed out for us to do. What that is for us to do is yet to be determined, but I have no doubt whatsoever that he has us ready and we are waiting for him to say its time to take that first step now go.

Walking Thru The Fire So He Can Break Me Down To Mold Me Into His Image.

Walking Thru The Fire So He Can Break Me Down To Mold Me Into His Image.
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